WHY I WAS IN CALIFORNIA AND EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED
Hi friends! Welcome back :)
On July 9th God gave me the following rhema in my devotional: (a rhema is a specific Bible verse God gives you for a specific time and situation. It´s like your lifeline :) and a devotional is your one-on-one quality time with Jesus where you read the Bible, pray and worship 😉)
¨Whether the cloud stayed above the Tabernacle for two days, a month, or a year, the people of Israel stayed in camp and did not move on. But as soon as it lifted, they broke camp and moved on.¨ (Numbers 9:22)
I read this Word one week before the youth conference so I thought the Lord meant He would move me into new things in different areas of my life at the conference...not that i would literally have to pack up camp and follow the cloud! Life with Jesus is truly an adventure, and even though the heart feels the tug and pull of growth, His love-actions make it worth it all!
I flew out that Friday to California with no other plan than to (do something I can’t really talk about on here, sorry! Haha) and step into what He had planned. That’s what gets me about Jeremiah 29:11: He always knows what He’s doing. Even when we don’t fully cooperate with His plan, He doesn’t just “wing it”, He knows and moves everything according to His plans and purposes.
Saturday afternoon I called my cousin and shared my list of goals for the month. God had given me this getaway and here I was filling it with more things to avoid stillness 🤦♀️ But in His infinite love and mercy, He didn’t let me get busy. He spoke to me in Numbers 17 when Aaron’s staff is chosen. His staff budded among 11 others because Aaron had been chosen, predestined. And the staff didn’t need to do anything else but be in the presence of God for one night to display that. This was my month to be saturated in His presence and just be. It was stillness that would bring confirmation of my calling. Beautiful, right? Well, it took me a few days to get it. Stillness is awkward and a little intimidating. But His presence lured me in and I was able to just sing what was on my heart, no clever wording or cool melody, just a heart-song. I lied out under the sun and just thought happy thoughts and gave thanks. I read books, watched movies, called friends I hadn’t talked to in months. I ate good food and explored the area. In all of it, He was there pursuing my heart.
I wanted to write this because maybe like me, you see people’s cool Instagram posts and stories and think just that...it’s cool. But like the old saying goes, “a picture is worth a thousand words”, and in my case, every picture is a thousand love words from God.
You see, I had the desire of going to Disney (I had it on my goal list), but didn’t think it would actually happen. I wanted my amazing friend Viviana to be with me for a few weeks, but it felt like a far fetched dream. So much of what happened on this trip was God romancing me. And everything I didn’t post was how He conquered it, again.
My adventures with the beautiful Nancy and Berenice (instagrams below) in Solvang were spontaneous and a complete gift from God. You saw the cute pictures in the yellow dress, but I got to spend the day with two incredible women of God who made me laugh, feel special and taught me so much with their lives.
Being at the G12 Conference in Azusa was not in my plans, yet God used different circumstances to let me receive a fresh outpouring and hug people I missed so much! (Isn’t the Vision just great?! Family all over the world and every conference in January is like a big family reunion! ❤️)
The Disney day was so much more than just a Disney day. God just knows 🥰 It’s the little things like the pretty blue sky, the good food, the firework show, the company, HIS company that made the day so special. Dancing with the Disney characters, the rides, Cars Land—they mean so much more to me on a personal level. I didn’t feel like a princess because I was at Disney, I was at Disney because I am HIS princess. When I left, and even as I write this now in my cute sweatpants, I’m still His princess. I’ll open up my heart a little more and share this: that day I didn’t just think I looked pretty or fiiine 🤪, I felt beautiful. I felt like God couldn’t take His eyes off of me and He was just so proud of me. I couldn’t stop giggling on Space Mountain because I felt like He was tickling me the whole ride. I loved dancing with Berenice and Viviana (and Goofy and Mickey) because it was the expression of the joy I felt inside.
God is a big God, a mighty warrior and the King of kings, Creator of heaven and earth. But He’s also my Bridegroom, my friend, my constant company. And so when I share these things it’s not to belittle His authority or “humanize” His sovereignty. Not at all! I share how He made me feel because I want you to know that He is also after your heart. Dear (girl) friend, you know that desire you have deep deep inside to be noticed, loved, conquered and wanted? First of all, understand that it´s a GOOD thing! You know why? Because that’s exactly how God feels about you. He wants to be seen, wanted and pursued by you and me. You reflect God’s heart in that way; embrace it and use that persistent desire to conquer His heart and open up to Him. Dear (dude) friend, you know the rooted desire you have to be the hero that saves the girl, the brave knight, the Prince Charming? Be that! But first, watch how God is that brave Dad fighting for you, learn from Him and how He relentlessly conquers your heart. Only then will you be able to effectively conquer what and who He’s promised you. He wants your heart first.
How beautiful!! I tell ya, I’ve been on cloud nine with God for the last three weeks and I’m not quite ready to come down! Hosea 2:14 says,
¨But then I will win her back once again. I will lead her into the desert and speak tenderly to her there¨.
The desert, also referred to as the wilderness in Scripture, doesn’t always have to mean hardship and trial, wilderness could mean stillness, quiet, isolated (in the best way). I believe God wants to romance you! He wants you to catch Him looking at you when you laugh, feel His company as you go about your day to day and feel His unconditional love and support. He’s in the big things, but He is so a God of details, and like a good friend He knows what makes you happy. Draw near to Him with the expectation of being wooed 😍 Do something fun this week! Something that makes you happy and feel alive, and ask Him to tag along. Then share with me what it was you experienced, I love to hear from my friends :)
Next blog I’ll be sharing my 10 favorite moments from the trip and a few more pictures!
P.S. The girls’ instagrams are: